i wore my velvet blue dress with red roses, black sheer tights, doc martens, black jacket, hair down, red lipstick, usual eyeliner, there i met hoon's friend ryan. there was a huge st. patrick;s day parade in front of the venue. streets were closed, i was running late, mamma & papa dropped me off a few blocks away. i had to cross the parade and join the others on line for vip. there were 18 people there in total including me. i met this guy with a shit ton of tattoos. tattoos are his entire life, going to get tattoos from famous tattoo artists in random places all over the world. he had barely any space on his body left. only his thumb and writst had some spots. it was like frank iero irl. other than tatts, he is obsessed with his dog.he alsotold me about how he wanted to die and stuff and how his dad died in his arms. anyway. he made music, apparently gets recognized in public and wanted to ask herry how he deals with that. he says he;s like the . anyway, his album was a double album, and he accidentally only brought 2 of the same volume. so one of them he gave to me. the other he gave to jerry. he talked a lot. he wanted to get jerry's signature tatted, so i suggested he get it on the space on his wrist. so he did just that. jerry even reposted the pic of it on his instagram story. alright so, jonathan (jerry's vip guy) gave us the whole rundown about how it will work, no touching unleses Jerry initiates, no phones, etc. we got up and are split into 2 sections; left and right standing at the back near the doors. there on stage was jerry and the whole band in the middle of atone. i could not fucking fathom it. i kept looking at ryan like "OH MY GODD" and then he fucking plays OVER NOW. we died. i can;t believe i got to witness jerry playing Over Now. then... it was TIME. Jerry was like "hows it goin" to us. anyway. we are lining up, i'm 4th in line. jerry comes down. then walks backstage again... the waiting was killing me. a woman infront of me had the nona tapes on vhs -. he had his hair in a ponytail and under that hat, and thoseorange glasses i hate. basically, not the jer look i wanted BUT i didn't give a fuck. he looked Beautiful. and so very cute. he was so kind, patient, calm, softspoken - not sure if thats the word im thinking of, but you get it. i fell even more in love with him. my turn came up within seconds. it was signaled for me to walkup to the table. and there he was looking at me waiting for me to come over. one of my favoite things about herry is his eye contact. i walk over and say "Hiii". Hw took out his hand for me to shake it (he didn't do that for everyone). I told him my name and then he slid out a pick for me and said "This is for you." Then he asked me my name again. (i wanted to hear him repeat my name but he didn't lolz). but then he just stared at me so i go on to tell him how his music has had such a huge impact on my life and i wanted to thank him. he said "Thank you that means a lot" and he started signing my degradaton trp CD. Then i tell him I love his cats and he smiles and starts telling me about them, some stuff about Dealy that I can't remember. but its clear he really loves those kitties. he said "my buddy's sending me pictures and videos of them." and i told him i even have a fan account for them on instara,. he immediately says "Oh I know. I've seen it." while turining to face the camera for our picture. "Really!!??" i said. it was going exactly like a dream. it seemed like a daydream scenario. we got along so well, ... "Yeah... teddi and dealy... *SNAP* the picture is taken and i barely had 2 seconds to think about my smile - but it came out great. even jerry SMILED - a genuine one too. people say i look so happy in my jery picures, and its true. i was genuinely happy for the first time in a while. i was able to escape reality and enter a world where everyone is my friend, where we all love the same music, where i feel like i belong. after the picture i turned to get my cd and pick. jery is watching my everymove. hehe. "thank you: i say and i start to walk away. jerry turns to me and - looks me up and down ohmygod- he says something like "have fun tonight" and i can't remember what i said. i forgot to mention when we were taking the pic i leaned sper close to him, our arms actually were touching and i was leaning on his arm :D. the show was amazing. too many highlights. great setlist. met cool people. met jondaempsey irl. mike crowdsurfed during rooster. ryan threw a frog we bought at value drugs on stge. (before the showe we went - i survived on no food or water but reeses) (we also went back og the venue and saw george adrian and michael rozan walking around smoking, saw greg. looknig back at me as i peeked. aslo a werd guy took photos of us on the streets 3 times - can;t tell if it was for the parade or waht but that was long over. after the show i met this cool person named tal. well theres a just of the whole thing. genuinely the bes day of the year and probably my life. i needed it - it helped me stop thinking of c*. before the show i was a complete mess